I chose

face down
I face myself
eyes closed
I see myself
I had a choice
to make
I used my voice
to break
a heart
to take
apart
awake
to dark
my own
confusion and thought
left me caught
an illusion
of you or
of him
neither a whim
neither wore thin
neither would sink
I couldn't swim
with two
without you
without him
I flipped a coin
of heavy heart
weighted
with love
to give
landing
with only
"what if?"


9.10.08